Tuesday, September 27, 2005
last time in city hall!
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YB's send off
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jan and sharon! i love u girls!
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Pri sch gal pals =)
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404 class gatherin!
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Countdown to the last 24 hours
Let her cry by Hootie and the Blowfish
She sits alone by a lamppost
Trying to find a thought that's escaped her mind
She says Dad's the one I love the most
But Stipe's not far behind
She never lets me in
Only tells me where's she's been
When she's had too much to drink
I say that I don't care
I just run my hands through her dark hair
And I pray to God
'You gotta help me fly away '
And just let her cry if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing if it eases all her pain
Let her go , let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be
let her be.
This morning I woke up alone
Found a note by the phone
Saying maybe I'll be back some day
I wanted to look for you
You walked in
I didn't know just what to do
so I sat back down had a beer
and felt sorry for myself.
And just let her cry if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing if it eases all her pain
Let her go , let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be
let her be.
~ I leave singapore around 24 hours from now. There's so much to miss. So many chapters closed. I want to let go and be let go.
All i can say to everyone is
Forget me not
XOXO
*chelle
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Meetups! (more to come next week)
Sunday, September 18, 2005
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lingering in the doorways of my memory
Sunday, September 11, 2005
the cold gale of artificial frost
a chilly premonition
of what was about to happen
my fingers are crossed
white flourescent lights
alternate with clear glass panes
pound harshly on my face
the heartache just drains
i walk down in fear
the scenery never changes
down the corridor reeking for strangeness
the end is near
a bright blinding light
the frostiness of it nips
i wish my heart had lips
so it would have to say how it felt
you see my approach
and start to move away
from them, matching my gaze
a million words flew between us
your smile greeted me
the silence was broken
yet what mattered went unspoken
perhaps there wasn't anything to say
then it hit me
this wasn't goodbye
you had never been mine
you never let me in
As you walked away
into eternity and space
i prayed you'd take away any trace
did you have to let it linger?
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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Really loved the movie and i can so totally empathise with why Joel and Clementine decided to get their memories erased =) leaving the past behind is the first step to a new beginning.. and if its meant to be, we'll all meet again.
My favourite lines from the movie:
Clementine: This is it, Joel. It's going to be gone soon.
Joel: I know.
Clementine: What do we do?
Joel: Enjoy it
Joel: [In the house on the beach] I really need to go. I should catch my ride.
Clementine: So go.
Joel: I did. I walked out the door. I was too nervous. I thought, maybe you were a nut. But you were exciting. I felt like I was a scared little kid.
Clementine: You were scared?
Joel: Yeah. I thought you knew that about me. I ran back to the bonfire, trying to outrun my humiliation.
Clementine: Was it something I said?
Joel: Yeah, you said so go. Said it with such disdain you know?
Clementine: Oh, I'm sorry.
Joel: It's ok.
Clementine: I wish you had stayed.
Joel: I wish I had stayed to. I swear to god I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish... I wish I had stayed. [Walking out]
Clementine: Joely? What if you stayed this time?
Joel: I walked out the door. There's no memory left.
Clementine: Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Pretend we had one.
Mary: How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! / The world forgetting, by the world forgot / Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! / Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.
Clementine: Joel, I'm not a concept. Too many guys think I'm a concept or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive, but I'm just a girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.
Joel: I remember that speech really well.
Clementine: I had you pegged, didn't I?
Joel: You had the whole human race pegged.
Clementine: Probably.
Joel: I still thought you were going to save me. Even after that.
[as Joel and Clementine eat out, he thinks about the other glum-looking couples in the restaurant:] Joel: Are we like couples you see in restaurants? Are we the dining dead?
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rebirth
Saturday, September 10, 2005
well its truly been a good start to a brand new chapter of my life. i painted my room back to white, moved upstairs and packed up my place after all =) having picked up the pieces and put them nicely in a box labelled memories . im ready to move on.
got my hair curled, nail's finally fallen off and left me for greener pastures, a brand new girl's in town!
went windsurfin today for the first time in a long time .. was a very humbling purifying experience cuz i find now that not only can i not control the waves that hit me in life but the wind may not blow in my desired direction all the time. for three whole hours i left all my problems behind and just went with the flow, rode on the waves =) amazingly when i came back, i didnt pick them up again but felt truly liberated. fluttering free
maf tonight was nice, managed to catch up w old friends.. the light up was pretty as always and im ever so proud to be a hwa chong councillor =) my juniors rock! 17 more days! AHH im really gonna miss so many people. im really gonna miss my girls! u chicks are fab =) thanks so much for being ard
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